Sakinah Abdul Aziz

Do you have lingering thoughts in your heads whenever you bid farewell to someone? A loved one, a family member, a dear friend, a recently made acquaintance, and a stranger whom you barely know? At least I know I do have them. There are some farewells when we would go our separate ways, and there would be thoughts like, "Should I turn back?" and "Will the person turn back, too? To share that one last goodbye for the day?". There are some farewells where I would board the bus first, or leave the train first and I would wonder, "Should I search for that person amidst the crowd?" and "Will the person scan her or his eyes to meet mine, too?". There are some farewells when I would enter the lift and I would wonder, "Will the person stay, to have our eyes interlocked and to be smiling at each other, till I go out of the person's sight?" And there are instances when I would doubt, "Oh, the person probably wouldn't turn back, or ...

I'm beginning to value my weekends more than ever. You see, when you jump straight from school and do an internship (which pays you just enough to cover your lunch) and experience the time constraints as a result, you really need to hold dear to your weekends. I love the weekends. It's about the only time you can catch up with your loved ones properly and give undivided attention. And most importantly, you can catch up with yourself. It doesn't really have to be anything remarkably adventurous or exciting. It could be a similar itinerary every week but what's important is you love and enjoy every moment spent with whoever you're spending your weekend with. It could be sitting in front of the tv watching Sheldon Cooper's pesky antics. It could be discovering how your sibling has similar music taste as you. It could be jogging around a nice park in attempts to burn some calories to get back in shape. It could be picking up a book that was put away and trying to...

There are reasons why certain people are so special and that you can immediately set them apart from the rest. Of course there are the good times; they bring joy, warmth and comfort, but it's also these same people who make you vulnerable/feel vulnerable in many bittersweet ways. It is these few people who can really surprise you with your capacity to allow yourselves to bask in this vulnerability despite knowing the associated risks that may come along. It's like scraping the different epidermal layers of your skin, and exposing them bit by bit until you've arrived at the innermost layer where you are most vulnerable to pathogens. It is with these people you can be completely yourself with and through being comfortable, you gradually expose some flaws, weaknesses, habits, weird tendencies and silly antics along the way. Other people can easily shoot you down, some may leave you, criticize you, bring you down but these people acknowledge and embrace them and perhaps shoot y...

Turning another year older gets more trivial as the years went by, but we learn to cherish the simple things in life. Like the beautiful people I'm continually blessed with; my parents and my family who have made the person that I've become today, my awesome friends with their heartwarming words that never fail to put a huge smile on my face, and to be blessed with a comfortable, mediocre life. Most importantly, I thank God for allowing me to live 23 years of this temporary life, which is so beautiful. All I'm looking forward to is a lifelong learning journey ahead to be filled with amazing experiences and opportunities coming my way for grabs, so that I know I live life to its fullest. And so I'd learn a thing or two about what life really is about, and that I could grow wiser, stronger in faith, a more contented individual and in general a better person. There's really nothing more I could say, but to say my utmost thanks. - 23 years old, and am still dreamy....

In no particular order: Making someone smile Seeing strangers smile back at you Rolling your tongue over heavily syrup-coated Baklavas from Turkey Basking under the Sun on the Lazy River like a boss Deep conversations 1-to-1 McNuggets Baking something for the first time and then eating your very own product immediately the moment you've done your finishing touches Licking cheese cream frosting from your index finger from a very fine tupperware Watching Bean movie with the sister and laughing away as if it was the first time watching it Taking your time to shop and trying on every single apparel you love as if you own the hours on the clock, on a perfect weekday Roaming Town alone and going anywhere you want to Seeing how your unread, good books are piling up and loving the idea of books waiting on you Spending late nights just talking Getting out from the bed to drag yourself for breakfast dates Heading to the airport not only to send/fetch people, but really to just be at the air...

I think I almost forgot how nice it feels to blog. I haven't been typing much ever since school started this year and that sucks because I totally lost touch with this space. So I'll be slowly revitalizing the energy here. Decided to head down to Coronation Plaza two-leveled Starbucks today. A change of environment is indeed good because at least I could absorb some stuffs unlike yesterday. Totally love the ambience because it was a mix of carefree and studious environment (yeah Singaporean students study anywhere and everywhere). As usual, I had an awesome relationship with my hot chocolate hazelnut and had a nice, warm blueberry muffin. Yep, I realize that tea and cakes can really make my day (: I met with my girlies for ais' birthday celebration. And adhering to the theme, it was small, special and intimate. Oh how I miss girly moments and fun-time. Yes, I do sound like I really spent a great deal amount of time away from these things. In actual fact, I did go to the cen...

Monsieur Waldo Wally shared this video with me a couple of days back. I thought it's good, and so true too. And I love the background song called 'Cambridge' by Kina Grannis towards the end of the video (: The elections are getting really interesting. I am getting sick of the central library (fer real). I have one more paper to go, which is next Thursday. Am not exactly super prepared for it, so gotta push myself for one last paper! Have a good Saturday y'all!

At this very moment, I feel deeply thankful for the friends that I have, and those who look out for me and want the best for me (: And I felt like blogging just that.

One of the best things about the school holidays is the fact that I finally have "me" time I've never had enough of during the buzzling school semesters. True that I've been going out every single day last week ever since my last paper, but spending time at home and doing the things I've wanted to like catching up with my shows, movies, reading, music, stoning, lying down but not sleeping, television, lingerrr.blogspot, tumblr, have never felt so blissful for these couple of days. My playlist/soundtrack as of late :) Fade Together - Franz Ferdinand Fidelity - Regina Spektor Foundations - Kate Nash Mushaboom - Feist Le Festin - Camille L'Uomo Che Amava Le Donne - Nina Zilli Uncharted - Sara Bareilles The Goldfish Song - Kina Grannis Drumming Song - Florence + The Machine I cannot imagine a better world without good, awesome music in it. I just recently watched 'Love Happens' on HBO and I cannot help but to share some of the quirky words they used: 1) Qu...

So I'm planted in Starbucks at One Fullerton with Aiman because we spontaneously decide to spend our day in starbucks with our laptops, good reads and nice cuppas. Perfect way of spending the day, there's an awesome view of the Integrated Resort, nice jazz music, and my lovely hot chocolate on such a chilly weather. And what made the day perfect is the fact that there are free drinks 5-7 pm! It's the time of the year again, folks. Totally my perfect idea of chilling, am loving the school holidays :D My list of things to watch: 1) The Big Bang Theory 2) HIMYM season 6 3) Gossip Girl 4) GLEE 5) Hana Yori Dango 2 6) My many many movies :D - So the past 2 days have been spent with my lovely girls. Went to watch 500 Days of Summer at Joy's, played Monopoly Deal and spent the evening at TWG, a totally tai-tai way of spending the night. But no doubt, the tea was good, I really think the appreciation of tea is an indication of how people grow up and acting like adults, hmmm. An...

1. Never ever walk with anything else but flats (and NOT wedges) when you're walking uphill with winding paths to an isolated, important place, that seemingly feels like 400m worth of distance. So I established that amongst all kinds of shoes, flats are totally made for me. 2. I ate the best cheese fries ever today after such a long time. 3. I love food, and it's not only because they taste good, but I like how some of them look and the whole presentation of it. The best part of it is how pretty they can actually look in pictures! 4. I rarely take the train, but when I do, I actually enjoy the rides (the un-peak hours of such rides). And each time I take the train, I would find myself wondering how long it would take to reach from one end to the other in another city (considering the fact that it only takes about at most 1.5 hours to do that here, in Singapore). 5. The thing is, I do feel like being in another city each time I imagine as such. 6. I love cozy cafes with beauti...

I've been stepped on the feet by numerous heels as of late. Ouch. Ok this is too random. I see this as an indicator of the increasing pace of the people in downtown. And of course my uncanny vulnerability towards things like these. Go figure. I'm currently stuck in this dilemma where I have to make up my mind as to whether I should volunteer or to earn money, and whether it's possible to juggle both. As much as I want to volunteer, I feel that this school holiday brings good opportunities to collect some money (when else can I do this?). But this comes with some effort since finding a job that suits your needs and fields of interests can be pretty tough. I went down to Autism Partnership yesterday and the supervisor showed us the classroom and the kids. I immediately felt that I would absolutely enjoy volunteering there. The moment I saw the classroom, the toys, the activities they have to engage in, the psychological theories being applied to them and definitely the impres...

Let’s just be fabulously where we are and who we are. You be you and I’ll be me, today and today and today, and let’s trust the future to tomorrow. Let the stars keep track of us. Let us ride our own orbits and trust that they will meet. May our reunion be not a finding but a sweet collision of destinies. — Love, Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli

Stars - On Peak Hill. Interesting animation/vid. The weather's been pretty rainy, but that's awesome. Sets me in a very good mood. It's Sunday! Like a nice, soothing lullaby, the pouring continuous rain made me slept through the whole morning till noon. Well I guess it's been ages since I've found myself waking up anytime beyond noon. Went out with a bunch of french class people yesterday. Tried to finish up things by today but the weather's just too comfortable :) Finished reading my novel and I'm in love with yet another character. Before this I wrote stuffs on academic woes and such but I decided to delete those because I hate to have my blog to be heavily-filled with my academic life. Although my summer break seems to be uncertain in terms of activities and plans, I am really looking forward to it! There are some stuffs I'd really wanna do and feel so excited about, but what is it really? Like I said things are uncertain, I could be doing an internsh...

:D Isn't she just great? I have this affinity for singers who strum! This is something random, but do you know that President Obama grew up in Indonesia, and that he actually craves so much for the Indonesian Nasi Goreng and possibly Mee Bakso as well as rambutans, hehe! I've been thinking about the few places I'd like to visit in the near future when I'm financially independent. I've been enthusiastically viewing Lina's photos of Phuket with inputs of innumerable comments (lol) and I can't help but desiring to be there as well! So here's the list: - Greece - South of France! - Mauritius - Thailand - Turkey - Iran - Australia - Predominantly relaxing, resort-laden islands in Malaysia and Indonesia - Canada - South Korea I know these are simply too many and possibly financially draining as well, but should dream big as long as we live :) I've also been watching YouTube videos portraying the Muslim community in France, knowing that it has the largest ...

Let's play hopscotch in malls. Let's drive fast with the top down. Let's turn up the music as loud as it'll go. Let's put a couch on an island in the middle of the freeway and wave at everyone on their way to work. Let's hug strangers in parking lots. Let's hand out secret messages at traffic lights. Let's make lists of all the things that make us smile and tick them off, one at a time. The world will carry on without you and me when we're gone. Let it carry on without us, today. Source: I Wrote This For You

Remember Outkast? Yeah this is a Hey Ya acoustic cover, so awesome! AIR HOCKEY & GUITAR HEROES WITH AISHAH TODAY WAS AWESOME (: I cannot believe I took the whole day to finish up a short 2-page assignment. I should stop being sluggish and slackish because I should really be aware that my readings are piling up! I've another health psych term paper to write and project/presentation on food/music for ss. The latter sounds pretty fun though! I cannot help but to squeeze in several social meet-ups because otherwise then I'm dead. Dead dead dead with social void. So I'm hoping the pique-nique francais will happen soon and pisces meet-up (i don't even know if this will happen though). I need to go to jb and I'm even planning to pon a weekday, I need to get worthful supply of contact lenses (and a good deal of sumptious fooood). Speaking of ponning, my father actually ponned work just to go to a wedding with mommy yesterday, how sweet. Hana's 21st is coming up, her...

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