Sakinah Abdul Aziz

TWO MORE PAPERS LEFT and i can hardly wait! Monday- Devt Psych Tuesday - Stats can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait! Post-exams outings, meet-ups with many many people, activities like shopping and watching movies/many many shows, finish up 'You're Beautiful' (argh, there's something about Korean shows that always gets in the way in the midst of my examination periods). And then off to India, and then back and totally excited to shop till I drop from Christmas sales :)

Dear Abnormal Psychology, Please be nice to me, and I promise I'll ace you this Thursday. You do know that your branch is the one of the most complicated amongst the rest. To prevent overwhelming and overflowing of information, please allow things like Panic disorders, Stress disorders, Mood disorders and Somatoform and Dissociative disorders (those which I've studied 5 weeks back) to be easily recalled. And an easier grasp of your greater, recent disorders like Schizophrenia, Cognitive Disorders and Eating disorders to be fit into this tiny brain. For I don't want to be diagnosed with a Stress disorder myself.

To everyone who is mugging, or not mugging, or working, or idling, or feeling sad, depressed, or happy, whichever, here's a good video to you. Pretty cool ain't it? And true.

"You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone’s life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.” — Lucas Scott, One tree hill

It's Wednesday and my first paper would be next Monday. One of the most hated periods of our lives, well most of us dread them, are really the pre-examination periods. The moment you wake up, it's just you and the books, you take breaks whenever you need them, and then you continue facing the books. I have to admit, isn't this a teeny bit sad? I mean, besides the wondrous things you can attain with excellent academic achievement, the whole cycle is just plain flat. Few of the things I thought about during my breaktime are the greater things out there. I thought about this because I was frying an egg to satisfy my stomach, and when I was peeling the onions, I teared. Well most of the time I didn't tear as much as this one, and me, after many years of having learnt that onions make you cry, am still amazed. I'm amazed how such creations can actually cause such a strong physiological reaction from humans. The other thing I thought about was really how I'm going to ...

“All I ever want is to show you how much I love you. I want to take your hand in my hand. I want to show you the places I go so I can think and the movies I watch. I want to show you all of the things I’ve written. Or all of the photos I’ve taken. I want to show you how beautiful certain people are and just how great it is to be a weird little mess. I want to show you how to accept and even embrace how tragic things can get. I want to show you that it’s okay not to believe and it’s okay not to be afraid to die. I want to show you how to breathe slowly and feel your own heartbeat. I want to show you that I’m not like everyone else you meet, that I’m not worried about what they worry about. I want to show you just how thrilling it is to jump off of high surfaces and run with your eyes closed tight. I want to show you that it’s lovely walking in the rain, letting rain drops run over your exposed skin and feel them drip off the tip of your nose. I want to show you how much I love people an...

Last night was another good night. It felt like it was a well-deserved night before embarking on the usual mugging towards the finals (eek). So met up with the usuals and we did numerous activities until like really really early morning. Dinner at Pizza Hut at Vivo, went to Mount Faber and Henderson Waves after that, then headed to Swensens at Holland Village for ice-cream (because zab has free coupons for free ice creams, isn't it just awesome?!), wanted to catch 1 am movie, but missed the timing, so headed to BB macs which is nearer to most of our homes, and played this card game Aiman bought last week called 'Saboteur'. T'was seriously an addictive game and one of the most amusing things to see was the lengths we could go to plead and beg to be "unblocked". Damn funny game! Anyway R (I got influenced by your anonymity in your blogspots, haha sounds like gossip girl) I feel the same way about what you said! Like I'm totally grateful for the two Js and yo...

Slow Me Down - Emmy Rossum Rushing and racing and running in circles Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning Getting nowhere My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I've got it together I'm falling apart Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear In the blur of fast forward I faulter again Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep I'm getting nowhere All that I've missed I see in the reflection Passed me while I wasn't paying attention Tired of rushing, racing and running I'm falling apart Save me Oh won't you take my hand and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by Just show me how 'Cause I'm ready to fall Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flies by I need you to slow me down Just show me I need you to slow me down The noise of the world is getting me caught up Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it Ju...

In the years to come will you think about these moments that we shared In the years to come are you gonna think it over And how we lived each day with no regrets Nothing lasts forever though we want it to The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you In a year from now maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said In a year from now maybe we'll see each other Standing on the same street corner No regrets Each and every end is always written in the stars If only I could stop the world I'd make this last Sometimes goodbye Though it hurts in you heart is the only way for destiny Sometimes goodbye Though it hurts is the only way now for you and me Though it's the hardest thing to say I'll miss your love in every way So say goodbye but don't you cry cause true love never dies - Say Goodbye, S Club Pardon for the recent, random emotional posts, but ah well. Life's like that isn't it? We all each have our highs and lows. There are days when you j...

I just had the devt psych quiz and I knew I shouldn't have stayed for the flashing of answers (right after the paper). So demoralising :((((((((( I'm feeling abit under the weather, very edgy and irritable I think it's because of period. Period. Bleargh. I don't feel like staying back in Central Lib to study just as I planned to because the crowd here is so overwhelming especially now it's nearing the exams, I can't study in this condition, especially not right now. I'm tired, fatigue, sleepy, mentally drained, in need of glucose and unmotivated. I'm gonna have some pasta with fadiah and prolly head somewhere else to study for my final grammar french test tomorrow. While I am reading through my french notes, I overheard some french exchange students in front of me conversing, and am distracted. Gah. But not to worry about me, I'll be fine, just need some destressing moments (:

Oh, let's get rich and Buy our parents homes in the South of France Let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters And teach them how to dance Let's get rich and build our house on a mountain Making everybody look like ants From way up there, you and I, You and I

So yesterday, mugged the whole day at central library. And then met up with aiman & khai for late night supper at batok. Honestly, I'm amazed at the amount of energy I have to trudge along at 10:30 pm to see these two stooges. It's probably their company, tsk tsk (: Since each of us was dressed in red, green and yellow respectively, khai labeled us as traffic lights yesterday, ha! Banters with khai over food, endless random conversations, crow-like laughter, rants, the lamest jokes. Again, beyond-midnight walk from batok all the way to our houses. Almost perfectly empty roads. Screamed out names of our friends whose houses happened to be along the route we took. Simply awesome.

I realise that when my head hurts, especially after a long day, it's only on the left side. So I told Rui Qi about it and she formulated that maybe it's because I talk a lot HAHA! Which is true since your left brain governs language comprehension and production. Language = a tool for communication. Communication = mostly verbal . Hence, chatter. I finally got my new passport! The most ironic thing today was that I had the most peaceful lunch during the busy lunchtime hour at Raffles Hospital while waiting for my passport to be "made". Just me and my meal. While I was 100 percent-ly enjoying my ban mian, thoughts, yet again, were racing in my head. Not those confusing, energy-sucking, miserable ones. But just general restrospection. While I sat there enjoying my meal, I was thinking about how adult I actually feel. Well 20 years, guess I am an emerging adult. I've learnt not to depend on people so much. Although I confidently declare that I love the company of peop...

Today's blessings: 1) I saw my favourite French tutor after such a long time at AS1 walkway just now! So I stopped by for a jiffy for a nice chat. Ok the reason why I was so happy to see her cos I've always thought (and established) that she's a fantastic tutor. The way she explains things is easy to comprehend back then when I wasn't as passionate about the language and just simply taking french for fun. She's just so nice and sincere. It's great to have professors and teachers around who treat you like a friend rather than just a student. 2) I am done with French and Statistics quiz! Ok, two down, I have 3 more to go! Before recess week that is. 3) Spoke to Nisha during genes lecture about her experience in Delhi. Ok apparently now I know (much more than before) what to look out for when we're going to India this December! Can't wait though. Proj Nai Disha peeps are really a great, fun bunch! 4) I ate the nicest Nasi Ayam Penyet after what seems like t...

I just don't get how some people don't understand the concept of two-way street. I don't like it when people give themselves excuses that other people are busy, that's why they don't try and make the effort to chat up with them, or catch up even with them. Those are simply excuses. But of course if they themselves are busy, I'd understand. But projecting reasons that doesn't concern them? Simply unreasonable. Because I believe that preoccupation is a constant. Aren't the rest of us equally busy too? But don't we try, even in the simplest gestures to give more attention to other things but work? Relationships, by every definition and dimensions of it, work on this basis. If excuses such as "I won't ask you out, cos I just know you're busy" are being used multiple times, the only thing that is reflected is just how you simply don't care at all because you don't even try. I believe that if some people in your life mean so much ...

HAHA! Si tu le dis : you know what archuleta sounds like Si tu le dis : it sounds like artichokes sakinah : what! sakinah : HAHA sakinah : YEAH! sakinah : the french vegetable! Si tu le dis : thus, vegetables. As a matter of fact, I did taste artichoke, and it's pretty good. Very delicious vegetable indeed, right Alvin? HAHAHAH!

Today started as early as 9 am cos Aiman and I planned to have MacDonalds breakfast at Science Centre before heading to ICA. It's been ages since I had Macs breakfast! So anyway after that, he accompanied me to apply for my passport renewal. The reason for waking up that early is really to avoid long queues at ICA but guess what? I didn't even need to queue today! Because we basically went to ICA JUST to write on the application form, paste my passport size photo, and drop it into the box before realising I had to make the payment first which would then produce a receipt that needed to be stapled to the application form that has already been dropped into the box! But thankfully the nice lady at the counter told us that they could open the box and retrieve back my application form so I could attach the receipt. But once they got to doing so, we were a tad little too late because some other staff already accumulated the forms somewhere else, so the box was empty! Why is it that...

I've never watched the korean's version of My Sassy Girl before, but I just watched the American's remake of it. Although I heard that the Korean's version would elicit more laughter (don't they always?), I think the english version is so heartfelt, really made me tear! This movie reminds me of The Lakehouse. And this story isn't typical either, I think the plot's interesting. You'd know if you've watched the Korean version. Charlie Bellow: On the reasons to stop seeing her side we have: One, on going physical danger. Two, high likely-hood of a broken heart. Three, uh career sabotage. Four, she is clinically insane. Five, she seems to enjoy my pain. Six, fourteen piece matched set of Louis Vuitton emotional baggage. Seven, I haven't even kissed her yet, for God's sakes. Eight, she's ruining my life. Leo: And the reasons to keep seeing her? Charlie Bellow: I'm in love with her. It's so sad I'm not able to show you the heartfel...

Good morning! It really feels like it's been sometime since I blogged. Time just seems to disappear these days. Sometimes when I think about what I did for the past few days, they feel so distant yet you know it's only been recent! School has been fine this week. Monday - Wednesday was Project Nai Disha's Second-Hand Sale which turned out a success! Making money from selling off used items are way more profitable than carwashing! But carwashing experience was fun, especially when the people you did it with are all the fun people! I had the best night conversations with aiman&eva on Friday night all the way till midnight and a nice walk home. The best time to have the streets and roads to yourself are really from midnight and beyond, and with some company for a nice chat (: A dressy Thursday with stats peeps. And meeting with the PND peeps was hell crazy! Study and dinner with besties yesterday too (: So, submission of lab report and the last genes assignment finally. Ju...