Sakinah Abdul Aziz

Expectations. You need to live them up, as a student, as a friend, as a child, as a parent, as a citizen, there isn't any one role which doesn't need us to live up some expectations. When you feel like you've become the slave to things you don't even enjoy. When everything is about anything but you. When you feel too constrained. When you just want to stop the world and scream to them and for once listen to your feelings. That's when you know you have had enough. - Apart from that, back from India already! Will blog about the trip soon. Totally missing India. Had nice time catching up with friends back in Singapore too, really awesome times wooohoooo. Looking forward to a good new year!

Life, so full of drama.

TWO MORE PAPERS LEFT and i can hardly wait! Monday- Devt Psych Tuesday - Stats can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait! Post-exams outings, meet-ups with many many people, activities like shopping and watching movies/many many shows, finish up 'You're Beautiful' (argh, there's something about Korean shows that always gets in the way in the midst of my examination periods). And then off to India, and then back and totally excited to shop till I drop from Christmas sales :)

Dear Abnormal Psychology, Please be nice to me, and I promise I'll ace you this Thursday. You do know that your branch is the one of the most complicated amongst the rest. To prevent overwhelming and overflowing of information, please allow things like Panic disorders, Stress disorders, Mood disorders and Somatoform and Dissociative disorders (those which I've studied 5 weeks back) to be easily recalled. And an easier grasp of your greater, recent disorders like Schizophrenia, Cognitive Disorders and Eating disorders to be fit into this tiny brain. For I don't want to be diagnosed with a Stress disorder myself.

To everyone who is mugging, or not mugging, or working, or idling, or feeling sad, depressed, or happy, whichever, here's a good video to you. Pretty cool ain't it? And true.

"You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone’s life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.” — Lucas Scott, One tree hill

It's Wednesday and my first paper would be next Monday. One of the most hated periods of our lives, well most of us dread them, are really the pre-examination periods. The moment you wake up, it's just you and the books, you take breaks whenever you need them, and then you continue facing the books. I have to admit, isn't this a teeny bit sad? I mean, besides the wondrous things you can attain with excellent academic achievement, the whole cycle is just plain flat. Few of the things I thought about during my breaktime are the greater things out there. I thought about this because I was frying an egg to satisfy my stomach, and when I was peeling the onions, I teared. Well most of the time I didn't tear as much as this one, and me, after many years of having learnt that onions make you cry, am still amazed. I'm amazed how such creations can actually cause such a strong physiological reaction from humans. The other thing I thought about was really how I'm going to ...

“All I ever want is to show you how much I love you. I want to take your hand in my hand. I want to show you the places I go so I can think and the movies I watch. I want to show you all of the things I’ve written. Or all of the photos I’ve taken. I want to show you how beautiful certain people are and just how great it is to be a weird little mess. I want to show you how to accept and even embrace how tragic things can get. I want to show you that it’s okay not to believe and it’s okay not to be afraid to die. I want to show you how to breathe slowly and feel your own heartbeat. I want to show you that I’m not like everyone else you meet, that I’m not worried about what they worry about. I want to show you just how thrilling it is to jump off of high surfaces and run with your eyes closed tight. I want to show you that it’s lovely walking in the rain, letting rain drops run over your exposed skin and feel them drip off the tip of your nose. I want to show you how much I love people an...

Last night was another good night. It felt like it was a well-deserved night before embarking on the usual mugging towards the finals (eek). So met up with the usuals and we did numerous activities until like really really early morning. Dinner at Pizza Hut at Vivo, went to Mount Faber and Henderson Waves after that, then headed to Swensens at Holland Village for ice-cream (because zab has free coupons for free ice creams, isn't it just awesome?!), wanted to catch 1 am movie, but missed the timing, so headed to BB macs which is nearer to most of our homes, and played this card game Aiman bought last week called 'Saboteur'. T'was seriously an addictive game and one of the most amusing things to see was the lengths we could go to plead and beg to be "unblocked". Damn funny game! Anyway R (I got influenced by your anonymity in your blogspots, haha sounds like gossip girl) I feel the same way about what you said! Like I'm totally grateful for the two Js and yo...

Slow Me Down - Emmy Rossum Rushing and racing and running in circles Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning Getting nowhere My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I've got it together I'm falling apart Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear In the blur of fast forward I faulter again Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep I'm getting nowhere All that I've missed I see in the reflection Passed me while I wasn't paying attention Tired of rushing, racing and running I'm falling apart Save me Oh won't you take my hand and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by Just show me how 'Cause I'm ready to fall Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flies by I need you to slow me down Just show me I need you to slow me down The noise of the world is getting me caught up Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it Ju...