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Words of dedication

To my dearest friend,

Please get well soon. It's been so long and I cannot help but to feel empty, really really empty beyond words. You will always be in my prayers, and you are always on my mind. I BELIEVE that you will get through this soon enough and you will resume back to how you used to be, always making my day, sharing every excited details about your life, and simply just being yourself that has really become a part of me. For you, I will always stay positive and stay strong. I am looking forward to days when we can share that crazy high laughter when sharing our special jokes, when we can have our serious, intellectual conversations and simply just talking about mindless things all over again. I want to go home with you on the other end of the line and always asking about how my day went, or simply just for catching up. Because I miss you so much. But I know you are indeed a very strong girl, and although I may not be physically next to you all the time, I will spiritually provide endless support and I KNOW you will make it through! Time will tell soon enough and I will look forward to that day. This has taught me about how much I need you, being the amazing, wonderful, beautiful person you are. So I will wait for the better days when you are better, insyaAllah. I pray to God to always look after you and all your beloved who love you so much. I love you and I will continue to stay positive! Have a lot of faith and you'll get better! Because then it is not life if there isn't any obstacles :)

Yours truly
Your best steering wheel partner

P.S: when you're finally reading this, thank you for choosing me as your boyfriend (hypothetically) IF I were to be a boy (yes, SOMEONE told me this, guess who?!) :DD

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